For health and food, for love and friends, For everything Thy goodness sends.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Each day brings new joys and new challenges.
Today, I rejoiced in seeing Isaac's big brown eyes awake and aware. I rejoiced when he reached his arms up to me and said, "mama." I loved seeing his little hand point to the tv. I loved how he wanted to smile, but he just wasn't quite ready. It was as if he was saying, "mom, I've been through hell and back. I am not ready to smile yet, but maybe, just maybe in a few days I will be ready to smile." Take your time buddy, but when you do, we will celebrate!
Today, my heart worked hard. It was hard knowing that every time my little man closed his eyes to sleep and started to get comfortable he would wake up crying from some bladder spasm or pain. Though I loved him reaching for my hand, I could see in his eyes the fear of "don't let them do anything else to me." It was challenging not being able to leave his side, not because I didn't want to be with him all day, but because sometimes I have to go to the bathroom, get a drink or much worse, go home for the night. Leaving him today was the biggest challenge. It is at those moments I have to have faith that the angels and his nurses will keep him comfortable.
Today, I rejoiced for friends. Today, I received a package with a pile of cards in it. I opened up each card as my eyes filled with tears. I was overwhelmed. My friend Crystal from high school who did our family photo shoot a few weeks ago orchestrated friends from my high school to send cards and gifts for our family. They sent us hundreds of dollars, many prayers, and encouraging words. Your generosity and love is truly a blessing to our family. Your gifts will help make our days in the hospital much easier. Thank you all for your helping hearts.
Following every step Jill and Dan! Thanks for the updates! Lots of love.
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